Sunday, March 28, 2010


You are a Unicorn! Some people think unicorns are a myth... You are one of the most rare animals. Less than 2 percent of people that take this test are the unicorn. Unicorns are good an almost everything they do, and are very well liked!




ok so i took this quiz to see what animal i would be if i were not human and guess what i was like the coollest thing ever a unicorn lol.. awsome.. i also found out that being under the element cancer well lets just say alot of the descriptions fit me all the way lol.. and my govering sign is the moon lol.. iv always loved the moon lol.. so im kinda happy i found this out lol. um... apparently my gardian animal is the wolf lol. whick is my favorit wild animal lol. how funny is all this i mean i didnt set this up it just worked out this way as i was looking all this stuff up over the weekend.. its kinda funny that my favorit star and animal are both part of me lol.. i love it.. and i kinda find it funny how when i read the description of cancers how alot almost all the traits fit me exactlly like idnt it was funny to me.. lol.. oh and i found out the sign that cancer is writen with is anohter symbole for yin and yang lol.. how weird lol.. idk i just thought this was all interesting and idk i have always been interested in the stars and meaning like this i dnt really konw why but i have always wanted to konw more lol.. well gtg bye lol..

Saturday, March 20, 2010

How do you know


So this is probly the most asked questioon that human kind asks but i just need to ask it. you see i have this friend who knows exactly what kinda of path she wants to follow.
I love the stars have i said this. well i do..i find them so beautful and fasinateing. i mean when im sad i feel like the earth is comfertinng me when i talk to the stars i feel less alone. what path am i supposed to follow..is there one for me. or ... am i just here to fill space.. do i have a purpose..or what?.. how do i find my other half. how do i find those close friends i have always wanted. how do i reach for the stars like a have always wanted to. are my dreams relized.. will they be relized.. do i have to wait my whole life to find out. you know what my worst fear is.. its of being alone..thats the thing im scard of the most .. im afrid im going to be left in the dark alone and scard not being abble to see anything..oh stars.. oh stars do you hear me can you see me.. were am i .. i do not know anymore .. im walking blindly in the dark not knowing were to go.. im not like everyone i know. everyone knows who they want to be with and what they are going to do .. but me im still standing excatly were i was.. i never moved foward. never changed..

sorry if this is really deppressing i just needed to get some feelings out.. even if this dsnt make seens. i still feel a little better. kinda.. lol..

Monday, March 8, 2010

ISWAK 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG.. you can even begine to understand how excited i am at this momentof my life.. i just found out that not only is the best show ever created coming out with a season three but also that it comes out this year.. omg omg omg.. i thinki could faint. i love zhi shu and Xiang Qin AWWWWW OMG I JSUT waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i think i could burst from haappiness. awww zhi shu is like the perfect man well kinda if you count out the mean cold insensitve harsh bad tempered smart ass part of him then your good but i mean even those parts jsut make him more yummmy lol. not ot meantion the person who plays him is just yummmy himself lol. you add that personality and man you have one yummmy man lol. gaaaa i cnt wait to see there baby .. the ending of hte second season was so cute.. gaaaaayayya awwww i really want gan gan to be in the third season to awwwwww i just really love xiang qin thou becuase my best friend tells me im exacitly like her.i mean we are both night blind so i guess there is one thing but i honestly dnt see the rest of her in me lol..well then againi do fall an aofle lot.. but thats becuase people shouldnt leave doors closed in the middle of the nigh when they know i cnt see the darn thing.. goshwell ya mostly i just wrote this cuz i wanted everyone that is a iswak fan to konw that the rumor is true and there is deffently a third season.. gaaaaa to excited to sleep. must watch both seasons once more before bed.. aww i should study thou but i hate doing that.. awwww.. well kk.. bye..

Monday, March 1, 2010



Trust is something that is earned. You have to work together in ordor to gain and sustanin that trust. When one betrays you it seems unbearable. You feel like your dieing inside. you feel alone and sad.. you want to just hide in your own hole and never come out. I have had this experience more than once..I ask myself now why put yourself throu all that .. why continue to trust so deeply.. why trust that people dnt mean to hurt you its just on accident.. honestly i dnt know why i contiue to trust that people are good.. i just dnt know. ido know that right now i am alone and i just wanted to get all my feelings out.. i cnt tell anyone i know how i feel because if i do i will cause them unneccisary worry.. they dnt have to worry about me when they should be worrying about more important things.. im sorry for just dumping my feelings like this. but iguess this is what a blog is for so lol. idk.. if anyone reads this can you tell me why do you trust people.. why if your betrayed by someone you gave everything to.. what would you do .. i dnt konw what to do anymoore. so ya .thanks and peace to everyone..