RENT!

ok.. so heres the deal i just graduated a couple of days ago and im in a funk persay.. so i watched one of the best movies ever created its called rent. its so moveing.. thats all i can describe it as. well the reason im telling you this is becuase iv been in this funk. i didnt know what to do with myself i still dnt know. but after i watched that movie i relised thats there no day but today. i relised that im always planning and planning to do things and i never get to do them.. i want to live now instead of later.i have no clue what my life is going to bring. i do not know why im here i do not know why i existe or what i should do with my life. all i know is that there is no day but today. im not saying im gunna leave my future to itself i do have a plan in motion i am going to collage for nursing lol.. but i also konw that i want to stop waiting for tommrows. THERES ONLY NOW THERES ONLY HERE. no day but today. no day but today. no day but today. no day but today. if you ahve ever watched this movie you will understand what i mean. if i could live like angle lived her life i would live it with all the love fun and life there is to live. thanks for listening. lol. i jsut wanted to let it out i guess. lol.

Nervous and really wants this to work..

ok so i just read my friends blog and since it wont let me comment on it i will just write it here and hope she reads this.

ok so she was talking about the girl code and how if you date and friends ex boyfriend then you are automaticallyy a bitch.. and ya girls think this ya know i know it runs thru my head sometimes.. lol. except i would be considered on of the bitches becuase i dated and might be dating again oone of my friends exs.. but she said it was ok and all but like according to the girl code even if they say its ok you still shouldnt do it..well anyways what im getting at is im really nervous becuase i have a date with him tommrow and i really want this date to go better than the last date i went on and im scard.. cuz as you can tell im not a perfect looking woman .. i mean im not extreamlly fat or anything im just not skinny like you know.. idk im jsut nervous and i reall wanted to talk to my best firend but she isnt picking the phone up so ya. lol.. idk.. well anyways thanks for listening .. ll. have anice day..

You are a Unicorn! Some people think unicorns are a myth... You are one of the most rare animals. Less than 2 percent of people that take this test are the unicorn. Unicorns are good an almost everything they do, and are very well liked!




ok so i took this quiz to see what animal i would be if i were not human and guess what i was like the coollest thing ever a unicorn lol.. awsome.. i also found out that being under the element cancer well lets just say alot of the descriptions fit me all the way lol.. and my govering sign is the moon lol.. iv always loved the moon lol.. so im kinda happy i found this out lol. um... apparently my gardian animal is the wolf lol. whick is my favorit wild animal lol. how funny is all this i mean i didnt set this up it just worked out this way as i was looking all this stuff up over the weekend.. its kinda funny that my favorit star and animal are both part of me lol.. i love it.. and i kinda find it funny how when i read the description of cancers how alot almost all the traits fit me exactlly like idnt it was funny to me.. lol.. oh and i found out the sign that cancer is writen with is anohter symbole for yin and yang lol.. how weird lol.. idk i just thought this was all interesting and idk i have always been interested in the stars and meaning like this i dnt really konw why but i have always wanted to konw more lol.. well gtg bye lol..

How do you know

So this is probly the most asked questioon that human kind asks but i just need to ask it. you see i have this friend who knows exactly what kinda of path she wants to follow.
I love the stars have i said this. well i do..i find them so beautful and fasinateing. i mean when im sad i feel like the earth is comfertinng me when i talk to the stars i feel less alone. what path am i supposed to follow..is there one for me. or ... am i just here to fill space.. do i have a purpose..or what?.. how do i find my other half. how do i find those close friends i have always wanted. how do i reach for the stars like a have always wanted to. are my dreams relized.. will they be relized.. do i have to wait my whole life to find out. you know what my worst fear is.. its of being alone..thats the thing im scard of the most .. im afrid im going to be left in the dark alone and scard not being abble to see anything..oh stars.. oh stars do you hear me can you see me.. were am i .. i do not know anymore .. im walking blindly in the dark not knowing were to go.. im not like everyone i know. everyone knows who they want to be with and what they are going to do .. but me im still standing excatly were i was.. i never moved foward. never changed..

sorry if this is really deppressing i just needed to get some feelings out.. even if this dsnt make seens. i still feel a little better. kinda.. lol..

ISWAK 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG.. you can even begine to understand how excited i am at this momentof my life.. i just found out that not only is the best show ever created coming out with a season three but also that it comes out this year.. omg omg omg.. i thinki could faint. i love zhi shu and Xiang Qin AWWWWW OMG I JSUT waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i think i could burst from haappiness. awww zhi shu is like the perfect man well kinda if you count out the mean cold insensitve harsh bad tempered smart ass part of him then your good but i mean even those parts jsut make him more yummmy lol. not ot meantion the person who plays him is just yummmy himself lol. you add that personality and man you have one yummmy man lol. gaaaa i cnt wait to see there baby .. the ending of hte second season was so cute.. gaaaaayayya awwww i really want gan gan to be in the third season to awwwwww i just really love xiang qin thou becuase my best friend tells me im exacitly like her.i mean we are both night blind so i guess there is one thing but i honestly dnt see the rest of her in me lol..well then againi do fall an aofle lot.. but thats becuase people shouldnt leave doors closed in the middle of the nigh when they know i cnt see the darn thing.. goshwell ya mostly i just wrote this cuz i wanted everyone that is a iswak fan to konw that the rumor is true and there is deffently a third season.. gaaaaa to excited to sleep. must watch both seasons once more before bed.. aww i should study thou but i hate doing that.. awwww.. well kk.. bye..

Trust is something that is earned. You have to work together in ordor to gain and sustanin that trust. When one betrays you it seems unbearable. You feel like your dieing inside. you feel alone and sad.. you want to just hide in your own hole and never come out. I have had this experience more than once..I ask myself now why put yourself throu all that .. why continue to trust so deeply.. why trust that people dnt mean to hurt you its just on accident.. honestly i dnt know why i contiue to trust that people are good.. i just dnt know. ido know that right now i am alone and i just wanted to get all my feelings out.. i cnt tell anyone i know how i feel because if i do i will cause them unneccisary worry.. they dnt have to worry about me when they should be worrying about more important things.. im sorry for just dumping my feelings like this. but iguess this is what a blog is for so lol. idk.. if anyone reads this can you tell me why do you trust people.. why if your betrayed by someone you gave everything to.. what would you do .. i dnt konw what to do anymoore. so ya .thanks and peace to everyone..

Well i really dnt know were to start really. This is my first blog so i dnt know what to do . Well i guess i should introduce myself. My name is emily you can call me em if you want my nickname to some is elmo lol.. i graduate this year from high school and im a big dreamer of the future. I want to go to WVU but well see lol.. i might be a nurse i might be a writer i havent decied exactlly what i want to be yet. im sure one day i will fidgure it out. Im singl and i love to hang with my friends. I will be getting my car soon lol..its a small blue car lol..um i say lol alot lol. see there i go again lol well on one last note everyone who reads this should go on youtube and watch shane dawson cuz he is awsome.. lol. ok kisses bye..